Shakey Hands

Mon, Nov 23, 2015

After a break of a few years I suddenly felt like painting again, mostly to calm my mind and focus for a while. I’d forgotten quite how meditative it is! Unfortunately I’m rather out of practise and lacking in confidence. I spent most of my time considering how much impact that confidence has on my performance across the board, making little mistakes here and there and dwelling on them pointlessly. A microcosm of my psyche.

It’s clear how much of a waste of effort scrutinising those mistakes is, yet it’s nigh-on impossible to push this behaviour away. After an hour or so I’d decorated a shield, eventually letting the mistakes subside, and gaining confidence to take broader, more clear strokes. I’d like to think I learnt lessons from this but in reality, without that practise these revelations won’t stick.